Remember

 

You know, I almost never think about it anymore. Only when my mind really wonders does it hit me, and when it does it hits me like a ton of bricks. I used to have a penis. A proud, above average-dick. Now as I look down at my smooth crotch, my panties around my knees, listening listening to that steady splash into the water, the thought of an appendage down there feels like a dream.

I've lived so long with out it. 12 years ago I was a 17 year old guy, and without explanation, I switched places with my 12 year old sister. I was in hysterics, my whole life was taken away. My sister wasn't happy either. We preyed to go back to normal, but when days passed and then weeks we realized we'd have to settle into eachother's lives. We told our parents, but noone else. Since then, I've been Jenny.

For a long time I preyed to return to my life. I liked it, I liked being a man. Not a kid, not a sister, not a girl. But as the years passed I did not become a man, I became a woman. I grew into my body. I developed breasts, curves, the hormones of a teenage girl. I cried when I went bra shopping with my mom, or when my first period started.

But now I can't remember what having a dick felt like. I remember I liked it, the convenience of it. I liked jerking off. I liked not having to deal with cold toilet seats or gross public ones. I miss urinals. But it's been 12 years, and sometimes weeks go by and I don't think about my old gender. Yes, I think of myself as a woman. I don't know when that happened, lord knows I tried to fight it, but it's plain as day.

Would I go back? Not to my old life, I've missed so much. I'm 24, Jenny, the old Jenny in my body, is 29 now. He's got a life of his own, and I've got mine. I'm a waitress, I DJ on weekends, I have friends who know me only as Jenny. It took a long time, but I finally feel like a woman. I'm no longer ashamed of my vagina, or my breasts, or my voice. I'm proud of it. But if I could be a man for a day, hell yeah. What woman wouldn't?

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